In the past year or so, I’ve been finding it difficult to express my emotions to people as I used to do a few years ago. Now, don’t take me wrong, it’s not making me feel depressed or anything, nor do I feel that I am detached from my friends and family members, I’m just not extremely attached as I used to be. In fact, I’ve moved from the need to tell people how I feel to just telling my Creator how I feel. It’s easier, and I can trust Him more too.
So, what does this have to do with Jannah? The answer is in Surah Faatir. Towards the end of the Suraah, Allah tells us how the believers will not feel any stress or anxiety in Jannah, nor will they feel any grief. Alhamdulillah, I’m not stressed, nor am I suffering from anxiety. Alhamdulillah, I do feel some grief in my heart but it’s bearable. What makes it bearable is the fact that I know that these moments will soon pass and if I put my trust in Allah then I will soon feel closer to my Master, my Friend. The reason why Jannah has been very appealing to my heart and mind recently is the fact that it is a reward of gaining Allah SWT’s pleasure. It just hit me 4 days ago that Jannah is a REWARD from the Almighty! We didn’t do anything to deserve Allah creating Jannah for the believers, yet, as a reward Allah decided to give us more than can ever see, hear, touch, smell and even imagine! May Allah SWT forgive us and grant us His Jannah, ameen.
I don’t want to make this too long, I have to go soon. I’m not going to describe what I want in Jannah either, or what I would hope to see, because only Allah and the Prophet SAW can explain what is there so perfectly, and I’ll never be able to put it into my own words. All I can say, is, it just sounds so heart-warming and soothing.
I have so many thoughts running through my mind that I don’t think I’m even making sense. Dear diary, dear readers, I apologise if you think this is a waste of time. I just feel so happy writing this because the more I write the more I realise that Allah knows the state of my heart and Allah alone will help me out of all my difficulties. The more I write the more I smile to myself, wondering if I have any possessions in Jannah. This motivates me to work harder for the sake of Allah SWT, in the path of Allah SWT. A dear Sister told us 4 days ago that Allah has chosen “you”, I am that you, and I want to be that you when Allah says, in His Jannah, “I am pleased with you”.
See you next time In sha Allah